The Sailor Who Fell From Grace With The Sea #27


I read this book as a recommendation and as also part of booktube-a-thon but I can assure you I am not entirely sure how I am going to express all my feelings about this book, I have never felt this much numbness and awful feeling from a book, ever.


'The Sailor Who Fell from Grace with the Sea tells the tale of a band of savage thirteen-year-old boys who reject the adult world as illusory, hypocritical and sentimental, and train themselves in a brutal callousness they call "objectivity." When the mother of one of them begins an affair with a ship's officer, he and his friends idealize the man at first; but it is not long before they conclude that he is in fact soft and romantic. They regard their disappointment in him as an act of betrayal on his part, and react violently'


Right, so this book took me on a wild ride and it's only about 150 pages long. It's short but the story is not rushed at all, the whole book is at a good pace and it definitely was the right length. It is deeply sensitive, immersive and introspective. The writing is disturbing, filled with subtle metaphors of hidden significance.
There is a specific part in this book that had me crying for about an hour and I couldn't continue reading for another 2 hours. Perhaps it's me being oversensitive but I could not believe what I had read. 

The novel explores masculinity and the way these boys come to terms with the way manhood is as an expectation. This book expresses some of the most unpleasant aspects of human nature and it completely hooks you. 

This book was really heavy in terms of underlying philosophy, You literally cannot read more than two pages before falling into an existential crisis. You know you don't like where the story is going but you have to see it through and once you do, all you feel is numbness.

As explained by Rob, here is what the books underlying meaning is -

Noboru represents old japan pre ww2


Fusako is new japan being westernised

Ryuji represents the current population and their uncertainty

In conclusion, this book has ruined me and I'm not sure I will ever forget about this book and I barely slept last night just going over and over this book.


Notes On a Nervous Planet #26


I finally got around to reading Matt Haig's new book, 'notes on a nervous planet' and I want not disappointed! 


'Rates of stress and anxiety are rising. A fast, nervous planet is creating fast and nervous lives. We are more connected, yet feel more alone. And we are encouraged to worry about everything from world politics to our body mass index.

- How can we stay sane on a planet that makes us mad? 
- How do we stay human in a technological world?
- How do we feel happy when we are encouraged to be anxious?

After experiencing years of anxiety and panic attacks, these questions became urgent matters of life and death for Matt Haig. And he began to look for the link between what he felt and the world around him.

Notes on a Nervous Planet is a personal and vital look at how to feel happy, human and whole in the 21st century.'


This books design was absolutely beautiful, underneath the magnificent dustcover was a rainbow coloured book, one of the most beautiful books I have ever seen.

Matt Haig's writing  never ceases to amaze me every single time I read his book, Never am I let down. Notes on a nervous planet was no different. This book is full of facts and reasons why we get anxious and explores the routes of some of these feelings. This book is filled with some of Matt's personal struggles with anxiety and how he overcame that as well as showing us many people suffer with the same anxieties as we do. I found this book SO important, it made me feel less unreasonable and chaotic. I love how honest and truthful Matt is with his writing and how he doesn't leave out the important parts or the even less pretty parts.

Matt writes about his mental illness and efforts to improve his mental health. In doing so he is a source of great help to us and also influences us in the way we can improve our mental health.

I SO cannot stress how much I would have loved a book like this out when I was in my teenage years, this could have helped me deal with things a lot better than I did. This book makes you realise that you aren't alone and you are most definitely not the only one feeling like this.

This book takes us on a journey of the impact social media has on our mental health and the way we perceive ourselves online to represent ourselves as somebody different because we are unsatisfied with ourselves. We compare ourselves to people who only show the good parts of themselves on social media.

A quote I loved:
“Reading isn’t important because it helps to get you a job. It’s important because it gives you room to exist beyond the reality you’re given. It is how humans merge. How minds connect. Dreams. Empathy. Understanding. Escape.” 

Overall, I loved this book and It was certainly a lovely follow up to 'reasons to stay alive'  which is a booked that helped me with my recovery SO much. I even got it tattooed on me -

Based off of my grandad's handwriting.

I would love it more than anything for Matt to see this, to know how much of an impact he has been on my life.

I encourage you all to pick up this book, It is very much one of the best reads you'll come across this year.

Read my review of reasons to stay alive here

Matt Haig, You are one of the most incredible people.

Love, Beth



Today is the first day after completely booktube-a-thon and it feels good to not have the looming pressure of having to find time to read. I am pleased to announce I did actually complete all 7 challenges and read 7 books throughout the event. I am SO pleased with myself as I was feeling quite anxious about taking part as I didn't feel as though I would read 7 books in the week long event, but I surprised myself.

The challenges were:

1. Let a coin toss decide your first read.

2. Read a book about something you want to do.
3. Read and watch a book to movie adaptation.
4. Read a book while wearing the same hat the whole time.
5. Read a book with green on the cover. 6. Read a book with a beautiful spine.
7. Read seven books.

I completed ALL of these!

Overall I did really enjoy taking part in my first booktube-a-thon event and I look forward to participating in 2019!

I did end up swapping my book to movie adapation which I switched to - A clockwork orange

The books I read in order of enjoyment:
1. the sailor who fell from grace with the sea
2. Notes on a nervous planet
3. big little lies
4. A clockwork orange
5. Tales of the peculiar
6. landline
7. the sun is also a star
I will be posting individual reviews for each of the books I read during the upcoming weeks!

If you want 10% off on books for booktube-a-thon use the code "BTAT2018"


Booktube-A-Thon 2018


It's been a while again, I know.  Summer is here and so am I!

I've never actually taken part in booktube-a-thon, I see it happen each year and just watch from a distance and I am terrified of trying to achieve reading 7 books In an entire week. This year I am going for it, I've cleared my week, I am doing nothing but reading.

my tbr pile

I kind of feel very excited to participate but there is also the pressure of wanting to complete this challenge.

Here are the challengers:
1/ Let a coin toss decide your first read.

2/ Read a book about something you want to do.
3/ Read and watch a book to movie adaptation.
5/ Read a book while wearing the same hat the whole time.
4/ Read a book with green on the cover. 6/ Read a book with a beautiful spine.
7/ Read seven books.

1. Let a coin toss decide your first read: Big Little Lies

I'm excited to read this, I've heard such good things about it! My friend Abi has been recommending me this book for ages. At least if I read this then I can give the TV show a watch!

    2/ Read a book about something you want to do: Notes on a nervous planet
I spent ages trying to find a book to do with 'something i want to do' and I came to the conclusion that i want to calm my anxiety and this book will be perfect for that. Matt always has a way with words, he's a safety blanket for me. This book will talk about and explore anxiety!

3. Read and watch a book to movie adaptation: The book thief

I've had so many good things and hype around this book back when I joined book blogging, I even bought it back when I started with the intention of reading it. Long story short, I never read it. Now is my chance to understand the hype and also indulge in the movie.

5/.Read a book while wearing the same hat the whole time: The Sailor who fell from Grace with the Sea
I thought I would choose this book to read while wearing the same hat the entire time as this book is quite short and wont need me to be wearing a hat indoors for hours on end. I had this book recommended to me by a friend, he praised it and told me it has a chilling ending. Therefore, I am excited to read it.

4. Read a book with green on the cover: Tales of the Peculiar

Yes! I am finally getting around to reading this beauty. It's been over a year since it was released and I have had it sitting on my shelf for sometime, University just gets in the way of my reading time especially for those books I'm super hyped for. I am SO happy to be able to dig back into this.

6. Read a book with a beautiful spine: The Sun is also a Star

I mean, just look at the whole artwork in general. Isn't it such a pretty design?
I knew instantly I would be going to this book when I saw the challenge. 
I loved 'everything, everything' by Nicola Yoon, so I am looking forward to reading this!

7. Read seven books: Landline

Lastly, I had to choose another book in order to complete the challenge of read 7 books. I chose landline by Rainbow Rowell as I love her writing and LOVED fangirl and Eleanor & Park but haven't gotten around to reading this yet. It has been sat on my shelf for WAY too long.

Overall, I am so excited to take part in booktube-a-thon and I'm looking forward to cracking on and reading some books that have been on my shelf for way too long i'm ashamed.

Are you taking part in booktube-a-thon this year? 
What is your TBR pile?

If you want 10% off on books for booktube-a-thon use the code "BTAT2018"

Love, Beth x

Murder in little Sheldon #25


I was kindly sent a copy of 'Murder in little Sheldon' to review from A.H. Richardson.

summary provided by publisher:

The first book in the series, Murder in Little Shendon, takes place in a quaint little village in England. Picture, if you will, a picturesque village called Little Shendon, suddenly caught up in dealing with a murder of one of its citizens — not a particularly well-liked one at that. Which makes it all the more intriguing because the list of suspects becomes very long. This tantalizing tale unfolds with twists and turns to find out whodunit to Mr. Bartholomew Fynche, the murdered shopkeeper.

Fear grips the community as the investigation slowly progresses. Everyone is interviewed; everyone is suspect! From his housekeeper to Lady Armstrong and her household staff. Or could it be the shy librarian new in town? Or the defiant retired army major and his ladyfriend, the post mistress? Or perhaps the weird sisters who live on the edge of town? Then there is the couple who own the local inn and pub, along with the two Americans who are staying there? Even the vicar and his wife fall under the gloom of suspicion.

Uncertainty, wariness, and terror reign as neighbors watch neighbors to discover the evil that permeates their upturned lives. No one feels safe in this charming little village. Who is the murderer? And why was this strange uncivil man dispatched in such a seemingly civil community?

A murder mystery that will keep you reading until you learn the details, uncovered by Police Inspector Stanley Burgess and his two amateur detectives, Sir Victor Hazlitt and Beresford Brandon. The three sift methodically through the Alibis and life stories of the suspects until they uncover…

You are challenged to discover the culprit before the last few pages. And no fair looking ahead — it’s the journey that proves the most enticing.

my short review *may contain spoilers*

I love a mystery novel and love the feel to the story of the village, the author takes the time to describe the characters and their surroundings which made me connect with the book and characters wonderfully. This is not for those, who are looking for a fast-paced thriller but for those, who enjoy a classic murder mystery. It was an exciting read for me where the author takes the reader along on the investigation. She takes you through each stage of the investigation so you're always aware exactly on what is happening. The three main men investigating the case are each in their own strong characters – Police Inspector Burgess, his friend Sir Hazlitt and the actor Beresford (‘Berrie’) Brandon.

There were many references to Agatha Christie, the book is filled with references and as a huge Agatha Christie fan this was heartwarming to read.

 Victor Hazlitt and Berrie Brandon were a great duo and although they were 'amateurs' they were the best characters in my opinion, i enjoyed their friendship. 

This is a book that I would recommend to readers who like a more  cosy mystery read.  A really enjoyable read. This is my first time reading anything by this author and I will be looking at reading more by her in the future.

Thanks to kelsey and A.H. Richardson for sending me this book!

buy it here

Love, Beth